Daily Meditation: June 13, 2022

by Richard Saxer on June 13, 2022

 . . . if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, “Move from here to there”, and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.

- Matthew 17: 20

A loving father asked Jesus to heal his son who had seizures. Jesus “rebuked the demon” and the boy was healed instantly.

I don’t have seizures and I don’t think that I have actual demons living inside me. But sometimes I do have fear, despair, pain, resentments, or anger that seem to seize and immobilize me; at times they almost feel demonic. Sometimes they are so mountainous that I wonder if anyone can help me move them.

Can Jesus heal me like he healed the boy? Can he (re)move my mountain?
Jesus speaks to me: “Richard, If you had faith the size of a mustard seed you could move that mountain!” Wikipedia informs me that the teeny mustard seed is about 0.039 to 0.079 inches in diameter…. and the tree can grow up to 30 feet tall and wide. How is that possible?

For me it starts and ends with a prayer. I do find help when I pray and literally ask Jesus to remove my despair, grief, anger, resentment, fear. I do find calm returning. It may be slow at times, but I can feel it. I continue to pray and discover the strength to talk to someone or make a needed change. Before I know it, that mountain is definitely nudged if not removed altogether!

But, for me, the hard part is getting started in the first place...in starting that prayer. Am I so weighed down that I don’t think anyone can help me? Am I possibly so enjoying my resentment or despair that I don’t want to let it go? Where is the “father” inside me to bring me to Jesus? All it takes is a teeny tiny bit of willingness on my part to get going!

We are Easter people! We believe in the resurrection of those frozen, dead parts of us! We are Pentecost people! We affirm that the Holy Spirit lives and moves inside us! All it takes from us is an itsy bitsy piece of faith that’s only about 0.039 to 0.079 inches in diameter to get started!

Musical Reflection - You Raise Me Up - Vocalpoint

 Heavenly Father help me see to see the minute speck of faith that I do have. Jesus, I do believe that you can help me. Help my unbelief! Remove the mountain of my doubt, grief, fear, anger, resentments so that I can live again in the fullness of your love and joy. Holy God, thank you for breathing your life giving Spirit within me so that I can feel my holiness get on with loving myself and others totally! Amen.